Very depressed & frustrated.
Looking back at my achievements, I just realised: my past artworks that have been given away @ sold to people (most of them were not scanned so not in my storage)... the ones of real people I've drawn that I made sure of the person's feature details -- why is it that these people DIE after about 10-12 years after I draw them in precision??
Macam ada sumpahan pula bila lukis dengan terperinci. Sekiranya yang meninggal itu seorang dua, Nix tak hairan. Tapi kalau dalam tiga puluh lebih orang yang dilukis dengan terperinci tu, hampir tiga puluh orang yang 'jalan'.... apa maknanya?